contemplating

been thinking a lot lately - wala na kasi ako magawa din...for some, alam nyo na kung bakit, for most of the people its kinda complicated...im in a middle of employment dilemma, kung ano man ang pumasok sa isip nyo, maaring tama, maaring mali, but i'll bet my life mali 'yang iniisip mo...dahil sobrang kalowka ang case ko!


back to my thoughts. yun nga been thinking a lot about what's happening with my life, what do i really want, what do i really need. tipong soul searching ang drama ko. and lately i've been realizing a lot of things. na puro ako plano, kulang na kulang nmn ako sa gawa. i mean out of the blue i would plan of something great or something big but something holds me back to do what i ought to do,


ewan ko ba. something is pulling me back.

asaran at pikunan

sabi nila bawal ang mapikon at ang pikon ay laging talo. eh paano kung malakas ka mang asar tapos pikon ka naman, ano un? hay ewan ko ba sa mga taong ganun ang lakas lakas mang asar akala mo kung sinong perpekto pero kapag siya naman ang sinimulan na asarin ay pikon naman at kapag nagalit na dinadaan na sa pananakit. sa simula pananalita hanggang sa maging pisikal na. tama ba yun?

hiccup

Hiccup - word used by my friend to call this mayhem that is happening in my life as of the moment. Funny way to describe it, however giving it a deeper thought, it fits. Scientifically, hiccup is a state of the body wherein there is a minor setback with the normal air passage in one’s body. To relate it to a day-to-day life, it poses as a predicament a person is battling off.

As of now, I am just thinking that I went into sabbatical; a journey wherein I was given the chance to re-evaluate the events that took place in my life in the past. How it is affecting my present and how will it affect my future. Through this flight I have realized a lot of things that normally some people are taking for granted from their daily lives and it thought me a lot of things that I can say are essential in my life. Listed below are some random thoughts.

• I can be friends to a lot of people but I can only trust a few – so I have be careful in choosing the people to trust life
• In the lowest point in my life, I have come to knew who my real friends are and who are just pretending to be
• Faith will keep me from going into places
• Smiling a lot makes my life a little less miserable
• Little things such as a simple SMS like “kamusta ka na?” rekindles the fire within me
• Being feisty does not mean bigheaded
• Being vocal for what I feel does not equal to being disrespectful or so much to say being above other people
• Less words, less mistakes
• Worrying just gives me something to do, but it does not get me anywhere
• Being happy is finding the peace within myself
• A forgiving heart provides a peace of mind
• Crying does not make me coward
• Fighting for what I believe is right is worth all my effort

Learning from any problem will make me a greater and stronger person. That was the best thing I’ve learned so far. And that what I am doing right now, I’m picking up all the possible wisdom I can have. Being strong-willed is not easy. Fighting can be tiring at most times, but that’s what keeps me human - human enough to acknowledge my mistakes and whirling it into positive points that I can partake to the people surrounding me.