running away

on my way home, habang naglalakad ako and listening to an fm station thru my phone, nakakatawa lang, the song was by craig david, not sure kung tama ung title in mind ko na "running away" basta ang lyrics ganito "...im running away, from the troubles in my life, im running away to find a better day" SAKTO! ang galing. swak na swak lang sa buhay ko. as of now, gusto ko muna maglaho parang bula from everything. as in kung pede lang maging mala sleeping beauty na matutulog na muna ako at gigising na lang ako kapag ok na ang lahat or parang kabute na lulubog lilitaw kapag everything is smooth sailing na ulit.

HAY. ang buhay. alam kong hindi pede ang gusto ko mangyari, na tumakas panandalian sa lahat ng problemang pinagdadaanan ko. pero who can blame me ang damin kasi bwakanang-shet na nang-yayari sa buhay ko.

UNA. wala pa din ako work...had a fair share sa mga raket, pero hindi naman stable yun. what i want now is a more stable and grounded job pero dahil nga...pede ko na bang sabihin?...i think not...tska na, pag tapos na at may desisyon na mula sa kinauukulan, promise im gonna tell all! kating kati na mga daliri ko para i-type kung ano man yun.

PANGALAWA. nabuburyo na ako sa buhay ko. hindi ko alam kung saan ba talaga ako patutungo. ugat nito ang pagkawala ko sa trabaho. parang biglang huminto ang buhay, its not that my life revolves around my job, but hey, in order for me to continue life as it was, i need money. to get money, to need to have a job, right? nung nawalan kasi ako ng work, parang nagkaroon ng isang malaking harang yung daan na tinatahak ko. kung kelan siya mawawala, malamang kapag may desisyon na...

PANGATLO. ang hirap ng walang pera! hahahaha... may mga obligasyon ako ngayon na hindi ko magampanan kasi wala nga ako pera!

PANG-APAT. bigla akong namulat sa realidad ng buhay na dapat matutong mag save ng money...yes, its my fault, after four years of working wala po akong naipon...kung meron man, naubos na dahil ang tagal ko nang walang work. pero maski na! dapat talaga, at least 5-10% of your salary should be saved at wag gagalawin unless its really an emergency.

OH WELL. i know, i could complain about everything, pero kung wala akong gagawing action about it, walang mangyayari right? so eto na nga, im trying to manage a small online shop sana pumatok nang bonggang-bongga! para may income na ulit ako. and also, i should be thankful sa mga taong kahit anong mangyari andyan pa din para tulungan akong bumangon mula sa kaguluhan na ito - ang pamilya ko, my very closest friends, by boylets (hahaha boylets daw!) syempre, walang tatalo sa boyfriend kong napaka bait kahit weird, mahal ko. oh well ganun tlg eh. sa stage na to ng buhay ko napatunayan ko kung sino sa kanila ang totoo at sino ang plastik. may mga nakilala ako sa sa previous office ko, i though they were my friends, i even regarded them as family, respected as a mother, but hell, mabait lang pala sila sayo kapag may pakinabang ka sa kanila, kapag wala na, goodbye na sayo. ang dami talagang plastik sa mundo! grabe! kaya laging baha eh! hahahaha

Gifts you receive from difficult people

Got this from BoSanchez.ph

GIFT #1:
Difficult people can teach you how to love; preparing you for heaven!

• You learn to become more patient, more understandin, more persevering
• You have pity for them because you realize that “hurt people, hurt people”
• You learn to see teh good qualities even among difficult people
• You learn how to be compassionate as God is compassionate
• You learn how to forgive; to remove bitterness from your heart.

GIFT #2:
Difficult people can teach you to protect yourself and learn how to say “NO” to abuse

• You learn love yourself, respect yourself, by no longer allowing abuse.
• You learn to be courageous and stand up againsy bullies
• You learn to give “tough love” - refusing his abuse again. It may be the most loving thing you can do for a difficult person
• You wizen up, learn tact, and learn how to distance yourself from harmful people.

GIFT #3:
Difficult people can help you get to know your weakness

• Difficult people remind you that you too could be difficult to others
• Difficult people teach you many important lessons in life. By seeing the tragic results of their actions, you’re inspired to do the very opposite of what they do.

GIFT #4:
Difficult people can bring you closer to God

• Difficult people force you to pray to God a lot - “Lord, help! I can’t take it anymore”
• Difficult people force you to trust in God - “Lord, I give up! I’ve done everything…”
• Praying for difficult people may not change them, but you will
• “Your cross (difficult people) is your key to heaven” -St.Poveda
• You realize that you are God’s difficult person-yet you are still love by God.

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After reading this Four Gift by Bo Sanchez, I remember a lot of things that happend to me. It may not be a good memory to look back, but still, it made me and molded me into who I am today. And I’ve realized that there is really a balance between good and bad, so that man would learn how to live life fully. This balance is just one of the wonderful and miraculous ways of God in teaching his people.
Difficulties that I have encountered (and will still be encountering) made me (will make me) a much better and stronger person.

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my strength

i'm trying to move on with my life, particularly with my career after its sudden death in the advertising industry, but as i move on, its really been difficult for me. certain circumstances are blocking my way to my new path as i slowly pick up the pieces of my life.

lucky for me, i have found my very own support group; indeed they are very helpful and very supportive with my case. they've been there for me since day one of my struggle and i am very grateful to them. the very first people in my list was of course my family - my mom and my sister - they've been my pillar of strength when i was facing the storm. my friends who always been there for me whenever i need someone to talk to and they're always there to treat me out for dinner, gimiks, to unwind. my very reliable and helpful lawyer-friend; meeting him at the right time and at the right situation during the darkest moment of my career. my special friend who even though he does not know exactly how to show his emotions to me, still he was and still there for me. mentors who never stop believing in my capacity to work in any job they are giving me.
as of now, i may not have a regular office job, im still working on the things that i love to do. small scale jobs that helped me get through with my day by day needs.
im blessed.