its been a while since my last post (na naman!) hindi sa tamad ako magpost, wala lang talaga time. sa dami nang nangyari sa akin for the past month. rollercoaster ride kaya! and i was wondering pano ko nakayanan lahat ng yun! oh well here's a glimpse of what happened to me. pucha, my last post here pala was the poem i wrote out of heartache! its been months, im OK now...walang halong kaplastikan yan ha! so eto na...
* few days after the breakup, i summed up all my courage to face our common friends at a wedding ceremony. na on the spot gospel reading pa ako nun, buti na lang i was so glammed up wearing black and red ensemble. hahaha. so after the wedding, mega smile naman ako sa reception though napansin ng mga friends na im not eating. at after nun, super gusto ko na umuwi dahil im in so much pain, seeing him flirting! my gawd, what a pain in the heart! but still, they didn't let me go, they dragged me to a hotel room rented by the newlyweds for an extra celebration with friends. there i got so drunk badly and the rest was history.
* after the breakup i diverted my attention to some physical activity. as in medyo rigorous physical activity ito. i was connected to an outdoor group. so ayun, mountaineer ang effect ko. akyat bundok. island hoping. as in outdoor junkie lang talaga. kaya imagine my complexion! hahaha. there was a month nga na i was in the beach for four weekends straight! twice in camarines sur at anawangin. so ayun! gala galore ang ginawa ko just to divert my attention
* siyempre inom dito, inom dun...mga tomador yung mga mountaineer na nakilala ko eh
* kala ko tuloy-tuloy na yung pag join ko sa outdoor group na sinasamahan ko. but then again something happened, a bad thing happened. gender sensitivity issues. so ayun. that made me decide not to push through joining them, nagkabastusan na eh. tapos, just recently i've learned that i was a test of character daw! WTF!
* wala pa ako balak pumasok sa relasyon, but someone so persistent knocked me down! so ayun, currently BF ko siya. but now i'm experiencing a lot of pain just because i chose to be in this relationship. people had judged him based on his physicality and status in life. hindi naman nila alam yung totoo. hay. hirap talaga ng ganun!
so ayun, so far, roller coaster talaga. a week of joy and happiness then a week of pain and suffering!
life oh life!
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