Sounds familiar, right? Character names from Star Cinema's One More Chance 2007 Movie. Had a similar sitch but not entirely. Well, I mean, sometimes I do hope to have that one more chance to make things right and to make it better this time. However, as we all know, past is past, no one can bring it back.
So, moving forward. Last Friday (August 13) I went to my friend's office for a visit since it was also his birthday celebration. As promised, I visited them because they've been ranting that its been a long time since we last saw each other. True enough, its been a year, almost a year, since I last saw them. I happened to distance myself from them because their friend was my ex-boyfriend. And sad to say, I've been nursing that brokenheart moments for the longest time.
At first, I felt awkward, but my ex-bf kind of welcomed me first. So I felt more settled. Since I wasn't able to stay long as long as I've wanted too, I just made it to a point to catch up with them. How things are. How was my godchild doing. Things like that. And my friends keep on chatting that maybe my ex and I can rekindle the old flame afterall. Both of us were just laughing about it. But for me, underneath it all, was the memory rushing back in of out almost 3years relationship.
After the "meeting" I had somehow some realizations. One, I still feel something for him, but that department was kind of vague. Second, I was complacent with the flow of our relationship and one of my colleague pointed that out. Third is that I'm still longing for that one more chance. Not that I am wishing to turn back time but what I am wishing for is another chance to continue what we had. However I know, it was a long shot.
During the entire shift of my work, the only music that resonated my ears were two song on loop! Smile by Tamia and From a Distance by Elliot Yamin. I was so absorbed by the lyrics of those songs. That it somehow spoke the unspoken within me.
Those were my shoulda, woulda, coulda moments.
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